hectic

hectic life everyday because I've been spending time working and of course, my dedication post is not done! and I need to sleep now cus i'm effing tired. so nites all:)

shall see you guys and update with the dedication post soon^^

p.s/ even though results would be out next year, I'm panicking now already.

worklife

I AM NOT DONE WITH MY DEDICATION POST YET SORRY PEOPLE! WILL POST IT UP REALLLLLL SOON I PROMISE!

Have been spending time working and my colleagues are cool people and they're all so caring and great! Gonna work tomorrow^^

coincidence

I've been having bad dreams of my O level results and it was so real and I am going crazy everyday upon thinking of it! I seriously hope it's not real! I don't want to end up going to some whatever places/schools/courses that I don't like! I won't excel in it!

Town with Jiesi today! Had korean cuisine for our late lunch, took pictures using her phone! We walked to and fro from far east cus of my indecisiveness! I can't decide whether or not to get the blouse from bob! But in the end, I gotten it. In total, I spent like $50 on 2 tops today. BUT I LOVE THEM ALL LIKE MAD.

Anyway, in far east I BUMPED INTO MS LIM OMG. So coincident right?! I never expect to bump into any teachers in town you know. SO HAPPPPPPY CUS SHE'S ONE OF MY FAVOURITE TEACHER. And coincidentally she wore the same type of top and same colour top as me. I miss her alot, and her lessons too :(

Okay, gonna work tmr!

busybee

Somehow, I'm feeling scared for my results already. Though there's still like 1month plus away to the results day. I am afraid that I might just end up in some whatever course that I hate and land myself in ITE. I don't want that to happen, praying hard that I'll get <15 for L1R4. :(

It's hard to not worry as a human.

Anyway, today mum gotten me a Fred perry inspired top from Best of blogshops, it's in black. Sometimes, I feel guilty towards my mum, I'm so afraid that if I don't do well for my O levels, she'll be disappointed because she's been giving me everything I want in this holiday. Really everything! She used to not buy that much clothings for me during school days but she bought everything I want nowadays!

Thank you mummy.

I'm working again tomorrow.. really need to go to bed now, damn tired.

I AM NOT DONE WITH MY DEDICATION POST AND I WOULD RUSH AND COMPLETE IT ASAP!

time

I would really like to rewind time and control time. To make myself satisfied, I hate missing, I don't like to miss. Missing is something hard to do and I am doing it almost all-the-time. :( I feel like a sadistic but it's hard to not miss as a human being.

I miss...
RED Camp
2B'07
4D'09
school
teachers
close friends
Jolin Tsai
dancing @ dance studio
singing @ kbox
graduation nite

I CAN'T HELP IT SERIOUSLY.

Ah whatever. Tomorrow I'm working again.. I want to shop like crazy and go home with like 10 shopping bags and feel so satisfied. But, as a girl, shopping craves never ends! So it's kind of bad but yah hahahahahaha.

I WANT TO RELAX, I DON'T LIKE VACATIONS. It gets a lil boring after awhile, well I've catching up with friends to do. Shall find some old friends out some day hehe. Okay gotta sleep, will be working till 8pm tmr.

很久很久以后

什么地方 整年不会下雨
总晴朗着 像不曾为谁 伤过心
讨厌自己 失去任何东西
也不争取 习惯了去压抑

我以为我们很接近
却始终存在着差距
其实我都明白
我不要到最后
你的温柔 只是同情

你唯一犯的错 是比谁都疼我
害怕我难过 才不离开我
请不要拥抱我 心却是冰冷的 别对不起
我唯一犯的错 是我太怕寂寞
才把不属于 当成一种自由
我应该让你走 虽然很痛
这样的决定 竟然有点 感动

或许现在放手 是体贴的举动
因为你爱我 不该有苦衷
请不要安慰我 你也是脆弱的 别对不起
我成长了许多 也诚实了很多
我相信过程 学会不问结果
你应该让我走 别再辩驳
在很久很久以后 我们会懂

I love music, it's like my life and without it, life would be boring much..
I love music like how much I love dancing.